Introduction

I was raised in a cult. I left when I went to college, but didn't really process any of that. I became Catholic and have been slowly losing my patience with the Church over the sex abuse crisis. When my successful weight loss triggered painful traumatic events from my past, I realized that the dysfunctional religion I was raised in had hurt me as much as my dysfunctional family. Now I'm smashing idols to see if any treasure remains among the rubble. It's a messy process.

Friday, October 16, 2015

This Space Intentionally Left Blank

I've rejected multiple titles for this blog post:

Failure

On Suddenly Discovering Things Were Not As They Seemed

Stumbling Toward Wholeness

Thawing

I'm just full of half formed, tangled ideas that I can't completely articulate right now. And that's okay. I'm in a place right now where it feels like things are moving: energy, thoughts, relationships. That feels less okay, even though on some level I think it's progress.

I'm not sure why I thought that participating in a 31 day blogging challenge while actively doing deep trauma work was going to go smoothly (or happen at all), but here we are.

I have several half formed thought experiments from the last week that I'm going to try to finish editing over the next couple of days and put up in the blank spots from October 9 - 15. Today's post is just more about acknowledging that I'm very much in a holding-the-space kind of place.

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3 comments:

  1. Jasmine @ Heart in FormationOctober 17, 2015 at 12:52 PM

    I hear you. Awesome that you are still going. Im trying too.
    Love to you,
    Jasmine

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  2. Jasmine @ Heart in FormationDecember 17, 2015 at 4:42 AM

    Hey, just a little shout out to let you know I haven't forgotten you. You're in my heart. Always feel free to reach out. with love, blessings to you and your little one
    Jasmine
    *yeah, Im still trying to finish my series
    ;)

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  3. Jasmine @ Heart in FormationMarch 16, 2016 at 5:45 AM

    Hey Dear One, Im still trying to finish the 31 days ;)
    But I thought of you today and thought some of my posts might encourage you. If you like, feel free to check...Ive got one loosely called "My Name is Trouble"
    https://heartinformation.wordpress.com/2016/02/09/labels-were-never-meant-to-stick/
    and another that is dear to my heart for any who ever sufferred abuse: Can't Touch God.. Can't Touch you.
    https://heartinformation.wordpress.com/2016/02/06/cant-touch-god-cant-touch-you/

    Maybe check it out?
    Love to you

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